firstly, HAPPY NEW YEAR! people. may all of you have a great 2007 =]
alright, so these are what ive been doing this december.
1. 21st to 23rd - went for a holiday to vietnam. yeps, had a short trip with my cousie, aunt, uncle and cousie's fren. was really short, but still had fun tho.. =] trying to cross the ever so 'traffic-y' streets. lol. and shopped like CRAZZEEY! haha. had a great time there =]
2. 23rd. went to sharon's house for housewarming. lol, came back from the airport, bathed, changed, and left straight for her house. =] met her elder bro, jason for the first time. he's dam cool. model. and joker. haha. and some of her frenz were there too, with eevin, isa, stanley and company. talked, joked, played arcade, watched 'night at the museum' and ate the delicious food. =] was really fun. thanks babe <3* =]
3. 24th- went to aun't house for a bbq/ christmas party. excellent food once again. and my eldest cousin came back from USA. so nice to see him after so long. yeps!
4. 25th- went to isa's house for christmas. got a pressie from cyrus and his family. a cool belt with a chain. =] thanks! and was fun too. played soccer for awile with tim, cyrus and stanley. talked crap too and had a 'soft-toy war". lol. =] haha. and oh, some F**KER stole my black/gold dunks. dam sway la.. first time shoes got stolen in that house.. had to be MINE.. on CHRISTMAS some more.. haiz.. but had a good time coz i spent it with **a*** =]
5. 26th- dad's birthday. bought him a jack daniel's tshirt. haha. relatives came over. and there was man u match that night. 3-1 was the score. ronaldo played dam well! and man u is the bomb! haha.
6. 31st- new year's eve! went to isa's aunt's place. the house was really nice. had the cosy feeling. and they had a huge dog. haha. played cards, went to the playground, played taboo, took many photos and COUNTDOWN! was really fun. all were there. and everyone like knows about me and her.. oh well, =] haha. well i said it.. "i l*v* y** **a*** ". <3
yeps, all the events. =]. had a great december!! especially from the 12th onwards. has been really fun all this while. oh well, everything comes to an end.. just like the hols. have to go back to school tomorrow.. =/.. im so not ready for it la.. brains are so freaking rusty.. hopefuuly everyone is like me.. hahaha!
gonna miss ya loadz** loveya!
havent blogged for like 10 days? lol. is that alot? oh well.. haha. well, stayed at my cousin's place 2 weekends ago. completed prisonbreak season 1 and a couple of movies. lol.
then like went out with nige, yong quan and brandon.. i think it was last week.. haha. played pool again. but i dont know why, we never get sick of it.. maybe coz we're just too pro? haahaha. and we have discovered a new addiction. "Ferrari". well some people pronounce it as 'fellali' or 'fewwawi'. haha, anyways, its damn nice. the games lasts like 20 mins! and the sound effects like super loud. haha, its just fun. go try it! then we watched dejavu after that. i have to admit, the movie is seriously nice, with the whole movie always being thrilling. but it was ****ing confusing. during the movie, me and nige were like, "eh, wtf is going on?". lol. but it was nice though.
slacked/rotted at home for a few days and went out today again.
yea, finally met her today after like SOO long.. went to vivo and spent like the day there. was really good. watched a movie, ate, talked, laughed and sunset. =].
glad we met today. *thanks. and see ya soon* <3
im so addicted to this song that's playing now. - gallery by mario vasquez. i keep hearing it over and over again. not because it has anything to do with me la.. i just think the rythm and lyrics of the song are very nice. seriously, listen to it, and if you don't like it, oh well.. haha
anyway, got up at like 1230 today. why so late? haha, coz i came home at around 11+last night.. at 12am, watched a movie - the marine. it was ok la.. like a watch-able movie. anyway, slept like around 2.45. so yea, got up today and oh, had a little testimonial frenzy with Sharon earlier today. fun? haha, maybe la. =]. then like edited my profile and stuff. got done with that, chatted online for awile and blogging now. haha, don't know what im going to do for the rest of the day. guess ill be tele-ing for the day. lol
there's only like 4 weeks left and i havent started on holiday homework! haiz.. as much as i want to do them, i just cant start. why? hm.. maybe im slacking for too long.. oh well, =]. haha.
yea, movie frenzy! haha, bought like around 16 movies and the WHOLE season 1 of prisonbreak yesterday! . now, my job is to watch all of them. lol, no la.. i not so free.. got other commitments too. but anyhow, i watched 4 out the 6 discs of prisonbreak already. hahaha. yep, 16 episodes done! stayed in my cousin's place yesterday and started the 'marathon' at 8+ pm. and slept at 4 in the morning. haha, watched prisonbreak all the way.. all the way.. haha so yep, slept at four and got up at ten. came home to settle some stuff and went back to my cousin's place to continue prisonbreak-ing. haha. im pro man.. i just into-ed my cousin to prisonbreak and now she's addicted to it. feels so good. lol. so yea, reached there, bought some food, a bottle of coke and cotined watching til like 8+? yea, haha, 16 episodes! still got 6 more and im going back on friday to finish it =]. but omg, still got so many movies to watch. oh well, anyone wanna watch? haha, call me.
glad we're in talking terms too =]. thanks alot and once again, im sorry.. but yea, glad we're talking. hope we'll be very good frenz ya? =] *miss ya
ripped and torn, he sits at the corner of his bed. with the lights off, at two in the morning, he cries about the girl he truely loved. "what have i done?", "why did i do it?". they run deep through his mind as the tears roll down his face. he wishes he could go back in time and change what has happened.. broken, he takes out his phone and messages her.. 15 pages of sms.. he expresses his remorse and begs for her forgiveness...
all these, caused by misunderstandings which led to their break. they broke up, and she cries til she has more more tears. her sadness turns to anger and she feels no more for him. but he, his anger evolves to sadness.. and he still does love her.. but he says that he doesn't as he doesn't want her to hate him any more.. he doesn't even say that he likes her.. all this he doesn't say, so as to keep the friendship. but deep down, he loves her with all his heart.
why does he cry? if only he gave her that chance to explain, they could still be together.. she said stuff to him and hurt by those words, he got angry and told her things as well.. she ends up crying with sadness and he is filled with hurt and fury. the cause of this - a misunderstanding he wished they never had. he knows she's crying but the hurt in him had drained the sympathy which he always had. he ignores til that nite. "im sorry" she sends. he replies but it was still anger. she asks to give her explaination and he resumes messaging her. but she did not know that it meant that he wanted her to explain. his tone was such.. later, he says he never wants to speak to her again.. he says that only because he thought it would be easier to cope with the break up. but he knows he never meant it. all he ever wanted was to talk with her everyday. but he could not say it.. another misunderstanding.. she thinks he hates her. then she says "im sorry. i said those stuff because i wanted to work things out between us". shocked, he asks "you're serious?" and she says "yes, but now, after what has happened, i guess its dumb to think we'll get back together". he is silent, feeling really dumb. but he can't be blamed. the msges in the morning were in a different tone and its not his fault. and she cant be blamed either, for that same reason. but all this, everything, was caused by screwed up misunderstandings. they have thier last phone call.. he tells her he wants to give it another try, but.. "no.." is her answer to that.. so he tells her that that was the last time and there it ends with a simple telephone call.
from that moment on, ALL his anger turns into sadness.. he knows its over and he cant do anything about it.. he goes to sleep and cries before he actually sleeps. the next day, his finger itches to touch his phone to message her.. but he did his best not to.. he wanted to get over it as soon as possible.. the whole day, he suffered, not being able to message her.. he thought that was what he wanted.. but.. it was not.. in the night, he could not take it any longer.. he wrote on his blog, and asked her to go see it.. she read it.. they chatted for awile.. he begged again.. apologies, begging, eveything..but she said no.. that was not what broke his heart.. what broke it was.. when she said she had no more feelings at all. even at that point, he still loved her but she probably did not know that.. the conversation ended soon and he felt a spear go right through his heart.. another night of crying.. he tried to lose his feelings for her, but it would never happen. he always loved her.. always.. but what was the use now? do you feel for the boy? he was just in a mess.. he said stuff he would never ever say to the one he loved so dearly.. but she made him do it.. but like said, it was a misunderstanding.. they both could not be blamed..
two days past.. something in his mind told him to visit her blog. he did, and he read she was sick. he immediately messages her to check how she was doing.. "drink loadz of water, and rest alot too. take care alright? and ill pray for you..". she replies "thanks, but dont need to be nice to me.ill be fine. goodnight". care and concern he really had, but dislike and probably hate was what she had. he knew she was angry with him. he tries explaining to her that he still care for her and eveything.. but.. it ends soon, with another "we'll msg tomorrow. goodnight". he's not angry with her as he knew she had school the next day and she was sick.. he was not angry at all.. he was really sad that it ended up this way.. but more sad that she was not feeling well.. he prays.. and prays that she'll get well soon. he tears that night and lays in bed for hours before falling asleep.
the next day.. he eagerly waits for that message tone to ring.. hoping it would be her.. but it didn't come.. its 10 in the night.. he messages her enquring about her health and telling her once again that he did care for her alot.. even though they are done, he does still have alot of concern for her.. he actually loves her, but he says that he accepts her as a friend as he thoght that that is what she wanted. but truely, he does love her.. so she rplies, they message for awile and she invites him to her house for christmas in december. he is very happy to hear that and says he'll try to come, not wanting to give empty promises. and she tells him not to block her on msn but delete it. and she says good night. at first, he did delete her.. but the next second, he adds her back, and unblocks her.. he's just very messed up.. all he did was try to understand that he had to accept her as a fren.. he thought by not talking to her, he would be better.. he set his mind to unblock her as soon as things were better between them.. but she said this and he did that.. he explains again, that he needs time to recover about the break up and that blocking her was so he would not talk to her much.. he tells her that he does not hate her and everything else.. but what she replied was what that killed him..
he is so sorry for whatever wrong he has done.. he will do anything just to get her back even as a friend.. although he loves her, he does not expect her to love him back.. he has to face reality.. he'd die to get back together with her.. but he knows.. right now, all he wants her to know is that it was his fault for not letting her explain. he is so sorry about it and realises his mistake. he wants her to know, it was a huge misunderstanding and all he said, he never ever meant those mean stuff. he is just so sorry and hopes she'll be in good terms with him soon.
so i talked to hisyam (hockey captain) last night on msn. told him that i wanted to go to school this morning for training. i know, my toe and all.. so i decided to just use the weights room.and he said yea, gave me some advice and said he'd help me tell coach. so, thanks hisyam. haha, yea. i felt that despite my fracture, i should still do some exercise to get back the long-lost fitness. and afterall, it's not like im so badly injured.. just the last toe.. so yea, wanted to show coach that im not slacking or anything.. haha. watched the match last night, and haiz. it was a draw. 1-1. so anyway, slept around 2+. set the alarm to 6.20 and expected to wake up. guess you know wad happened in the morning.. yea, i overslept till like 9+!! and would have slept longer but thank god, hisyam called me. he called to say that the rest were going to school to train after their run. and that the coach allowed me to use the weights room. so yea, rushed and got ready, and went to school. oh, ate oreo's for "breakfast". lol. so reached school, and the coach was with the b'div boys at the pull up bar, getting ready for circuit training. walking towards them , and sameer shouted " eh ram, breakdancer!". i was just thinking, wtf!, i told my coach i tripped and fell and this guy shouting this. luckylily the coach did not hear. haha. so waited for the briefing to finish and the coach came to me. and remember, he said i could use the weights room right? guess wad? he said no, i couldn't use. then i look at hisyam, hisyam look at me. lol, what a contradiction by coach. anyway, didnt want to waste my time doing nothing. so i just did parts of the circuit with the rest of the team. actually, only did the push ups. haha. not my fault la, the rest of it cannot do coz of my toe. so yep, i went for training. haha =]. went to far east plaza for lunch after training. and surprisingly today more people came. and that's a ggod thing - hockey bonding =]. so yea, it was hisyam, karan, huzaifah, me, fauzan, keenan, amet, samuel, sammer, zi yang and michael. lunch was fun, with eveyone laughing atjokes and making fun of each other. we came out of far east, and omg.. it was raining so heavily. we stood around for awile, and then some of them went home. me, fauzan, amet, samuel ,zi yang and sameer went took a bus to ps. and there, we decided to play pool for awile. so we had to walk to singapore shopping centre. and eventually, we could not escape the rain.. got a little wet. but oh well, we still reached there and played some pool. played for an hour or so, then went back to ps. got wet again. lol. anyway, me and fauzan left the rest. came back to sengkang. unexpectedly, the rain was equally heavy here. and no umbrella.. left choiceless, we walked about 1 hour in the F-ed up compasspoint where there's really nothing. we even entered metro! lol. but the rain became less heavy and we decided to go home. so yep, walked in the drizzle and reached home. feeling kinda cold and sick actually.. must be the rain.. haha, but i think rain is a good thing =].
Ram
8 July 1991
15
Sji
Class: 111, 211, 322, 422
Hockey
Prefect
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- family
- friends
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- hip hop
- soccer (Manchester United)
- pool
- hockey?
- chocs, cookies, ice cream
- oranges. lol
- and of course, her =]*
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